Kindergarten Nightmares!

We still have a month before Remie starts kindergarten but the nightmares about the first few weeks of school have already begun. If you think I'm referring to Remie having nightmares about starting school, you're wrong! It's actually me- ya know that over protective mother that wants to shield her children from everything scary or mean in this world. Yes, I'm waking in a cold sweat from nightmares about everything from forgetting about the first day of school to Remie getting a wicked witch as his teacher rather then sweet Mrs. Pfeifer from down the street. I blame some of these nightmares on my crazy pregnancy hormones but I wonder if some of my fears could be valid. I'm trying to be rational and sort out my concerns so that I don't inadvertantly make Remie afraid to go to school.

I'm going to show my vulnerable side and share my dark and deepest fears about sending my baby off to school, try not to laugh...

Pooping
Yes, you read that correctly, I'm worried about my son pooping at school. The poor child's body is like clockwork and he ALWAYS poops in the middle of lunch. If you know Remie at all, you know he is super duper shy. I'm afraid that if he has to poop while in the lunch room he will be too shy to tell the lunch lady that he has to go and he will end up holding it the remainder of the day. The thought of my boy being crampy because he's too scared to poop puts me in full panick mom mode!

New Teacher
As of last year there were 3 kindergarten teachers at Remie's elementary school. Two of the teachers are not only great educators but also very nurturing to their young students. The third teacher is great at educating but lacks in the nurturing department. I have heard that she is a great person but teaching such a young age is possibly not the best option for her. I try not to listen to what other's say about teachers because I try to see the best in every teacher. I know that they can't make every parent happy but what I saw at Remie's kindergarten screening almost made me approach the principal.

Here's what I witnessed first hand while sitting in the lobby at the school:
This specific teacher (we will call her Mrs. Notsofriendly) was doing after school duty, making sure the students got to their buses etc:
Young Student: "Mrs. Notsofriendly, have you seen my mom? She was supposed to drive me home and I can't find her anywhere and now my bus is leaving"
Mrs. Notsofriendly: *in a very sarcastic tone* "Do I look like your mom's babysitter?"
Young Student: "No but I'm scared she forgot!"
At that moment the young student went running outside hoping to find her mom and Mrs. Notsofriendly turned around to a co-worker and bragged about her conversation with this child.

If you know me at all, you know I have a short temper for those that mistreat children. It took every ounce of self control not to walk over to that teacher and tell her exactly what I thought of her conversation. I knew she was one of the kindergarten teachers and the thought of my little guy being treated like a bother to the teacher infuriated me!

So that's what brings me to this current fear. I am so very worried that Remie is going to get Mrs Notsofriendly for his teacher. I know that he would be a great student and learn from her but I'm afraid that this teacher will tarnish his first impressions/memories/thoughts of school. I also know myself and I know without a doubt that if this teacher treats my child anything like she treated the child above, there will be hell to pay. Granted, if he is misbehaving I completely back his teacher's discipline and he will have to face me when he gets home. So what's a mom to do?

To be honest, I have worried and worried about this for months. I have asked friends their advice and I have even asked other teachers what to do. Then I realized something, I never asked God what to do about this. If you remember a few months ago when we were trying to decide what school to send Remie to, God made it clear to send Remie to Havel and he gave me complete peace about the entire situation. So, I humbled myself and asked God. I really believe that He spoke to me and said two simple words "Trust Me." I dont know if that means that Remie is going to get the wonderful nurturing teacher or if he will get Mrs. Notsofriendly. But what I do know is that if he does have Mrs. Notsofriendly it'll be for a reason. Maybe to teach me something (patience perhaps?) or maybe to teach her something. I'm really trying to let go of my control and worry and leave this whole thing in God's hands, but it's terribly difficult!

Little Worries
I also have a bunch of little worries that when combined make a big huge concern! I'm worried about Remie being scared, riding the bus, not finding his class, carrying his heavy lunch tray, not making friends. I nervous about him going to ALL DAY kindergarten, getting tired, dealing with bullies, missing me and most importantly how much I'm going to miss him.

Wow, who knew that being a mom was soo heart wrenching. I'm tearing up as I type this knowing that as of September 4th, things are going to change. I'm going to miss our day trips to the zoo while everyone else is in school, our after nap cuddles and his hundreds of hugs throughout the day. I have always heard about moms that cry when their kids go to kindergarten. I used to think they were pathetic, now I know they just really love their kids. I'm dreading September 4th when I have to kick my little baby out of the nest so he can learn to fly.